I'm Done.

You know what?
I'm just mad now.
Simple as that.
I'm sick of it being like this.
I hate feeling this way.
I have no reason to feel guilty.
It's all your fault && you know it.
I don't have to deal with it.
I have for too long.
I refuse.
So many things, you don't even know.
Don't try to make it okay.
&& stop pretending.

Yes, it's hard, and sometimes life can be deceiving..

Today was a really bad day.
I'm not really sure how to describe it.
Two things in less than an hour.
It was horrible.



It made me think a lot....

I think I'm going to start writing a book. Basically an autobiograpy, but I'll add some things and change it a little bit. I've thought about it before, but never could really start writing a BOOK. Now, I think I'm going to just write it from a first-person perspective so it'll be like I'm talking. I'm really excited about it, but I know it'll take a really long time to finish. I procrastinate so much, it's unbelievable.

I want to go to sleep, but I know I can't.
The second my head hits the pillow,
More thoughts will come rushing thru my mind.
I really hate it.
Insomnia.
Maybe I'll just take some Nyquill.
That should do the trick. :]

I plan on having better posts soon.
After this week is over, I hope.
Everything should be a little better by then.
At least, it better be.
Or I really don't know what I'll do. :/



Trust is a fragile thing.
Once earned, it affords us tremendous
freedom.
But once trust is lost..
It can be impossible to recover.
Of course, the truth is-
We never really know who we can trust.
Those we're closest to can betray us
& total strangers can come to our rescue.
In the end, most people decide to trust
themselves.
It really is the simplest way
to keep from getting burned.

Hi there. :]

Caity's the name.
My name isn't very unique, but I am.

I'm not the type to complain about my life and it's circumstances, although I feel like I have the right to sometimes. I really hate it when people complain about things when other people have it so much worse. I am usually a very happy person, and if I'm in a bad mood, I always have a reason. My friends are everything to me, and I love to be with them as much as possible. I've been through a lot, but I think I'm getting over it now. :]

I like to act like a little kid, because I feel like I never really got to act like a kid as long as I should have. I love to color. And be immature. And laugh at stupid things. [I'm so easily amused <3]

There's a lot of people who have helped me through everything, and molded me into the girl I am today. It's easy to say I would be a totally different person if they hadn't been there. Some of them have seemingly faded into the past, but some of them I know will always be there. I don't think I could ever thank them enough.

Describing myself is quite possibly the hardest thing in the world for me to do. Not just because I'm so complicated, but because I'm so simple at the same time. I change so much it isn't even funny. I don't do good with letting go of things. Memories, people, relationships..everything.

I have a special box of memorabilia that I will keep forever until the day I know. No one will ever see what's inside of it. I guess you could consider it my secret box. I love it.


I'm really bad at ending these things....
I'll be writing every day though. :]